I've got my fatass cat laying on me right now and its getting fucking hard to type...but fuck its cold. lmfao...but fuck. Well today sucked ass.

   Theres this guy at my school (for starters) i've probably mentioned him in here a couple times before, but this guy...the first time i saw him it was like..whoa...the kind of 'whoa' i've really never experienced with any other guy i've drooled over, over the years. I've never got to know this guy much like the lot of guys i find physically attractive and who i think have a great personality. (blah blah blah). Well...i had been eyeing him and hes caught my glance a couple of times but nothing has really ever come out of it. Not nothing really...ABSOLUTELY NOTHING has EVER come out of it (so whats the point?) So today i see him slammed up against the wall with some chick practically suffocating him. they weren't making out...i really don't know what she was doing just rubbing herself on him or something. I try to block it out of my head. Just how much i wish i could have been that chick. I feel jealous of the chick yet sorry for the dude and pain and sorrow that i could never be in that position especially with that particular dude. OOOH NOOBOODY WAAANNNTS MEEEEEE BOOO FUCKING HOO. get the fuck over it. i thought i would be use to this kind of shit by now.